Wednesday, December 9, 2009


I remember growing up with the feeling that my parents were amazing, invincible, near perfect, organized, and always in control. I know for a fact now that I viewed my parents through rose coloured glasses but it was so very nice to grow up and to feel so secure with my parents. I never had to worry.

Now that I am a parent I truly wonder how thick my rose coloured glasses were.

I attempt to imitate the qualities that I admired about my parents. But I feel that my children do not wear the same glasses that I did and they can see every little flaw and blemish.

This personal quest that I am on leads to a lot of self imposed stress. It is a quest that, no matter what, I cannot end. So.....the stress never ends.

This quest always get really hard at Christmas time. I have a love/hate relationship with Christmas. I remember growing up how special my parents made Christmas. If my parents had any of the same problems that I have, I never knew. My parents made Christmas was an incredible fantasy for us children. I endeavor to give my children the same as my parents gave to me. I want to see the wide eyed wonder Christmas morning when the children see all the presents that are for them.

I wish I were Superwoman.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Craft Shows and Bazaars in Oshawa (winter 2009)

I love this time of year for many reasons. The most important being Christmas and the birth of Christ. The second most important thing is all the craft sales and bazaars that this time of year brings!!!

I keep a list handy for myself. Here is a copy of the list for anyone interested. Feel free to add any sales that I missed.

Friday, October 16th, 2009 to
Sunday, October 18th, 2009

Location: GM Centre
99 Athol Street East

Friday, October 16th 3pm - 9pm
Saturday, October 17th, 2009 10am - 5pm
Sunday, October 18th, 2009 10 m - 4 pm

Adults $6, Seniors $5
Children free

Saturday October 24

Location: The Wynfield LTC
451 Woodmount Drive
9 am - 2 pm

Saturday November 7

Location: O’Neill Collegiate Craft Show & Sale
301 Simcoe Street N

Friday November 6 to
Sunday November 8

Friday November 6th 4pm - 8pm
Saturday November 7th 10am - 6pm
Sunday November 8th 10am - 5

Location GM Centre

November 21 and 22
10 am - 4:30 pm
Location: Eastdale Collegiate

Sunday, November 29th, 2009
Location: Kingsway College
10 am - 4:30 pm
$5 admission

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Wordless Wednesday

I am putting my wordless wednesday a little early.

Here you go:

Pingles Farm

On the weekend we make the annual fall trip to Pingles Farm. It was a dairy farm that over time has converted to the present day bakery, greenhouse, market (Ontario grown produce, jarred goods, and giftware), wagon rides, play area, farm animals, bunnyville, and corn maze fun farm that we see today.

The boys were so excited! The first stop for us was the corn maze. The maze takes approximately 45 minutes to complete, unless you are extremely excited and run through from start to finish! Some of my guys did that. Th maze was Mosport sponsored so the picture from the sky was a racecar on a track.

We attempted to see everything and have non stop fun. We ended up staying for over three hours. Even the 'big boys' had some fun.

There was a cool man who put pumpkins and various other veggies into a cannon and then blasted them off. The pumpkin chunkin cannon show was really neat.

We picked a huge bag full of apples. I think the boys ate more than we picked! i was picking apples, looked over t the kids and they were ALL eating an apple!

Our last stop was to look at the pumpkins. We decided that we will come by closer to halloween, take the wagon ride to the pumpkin patch, and pick us a couple of pumpkins.

It was so much fun! I cannot until next year. I just wish Steve could join us.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Too busy?

Do you ever feel like life is just too busy? That there isnt enough hours in one day?

I keep trying to figure out how to get more hours into my day.

I tried to sleep less, but then I was granted with a two week long headache.

I havn't been spending as much time on the computer and I havn't gone through withdrawl. I know my peeps on Twitter are missing me.

Not sure what else there is to do.

Oh well. I need to cut my rant short so I can go to work!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Life and constipation

Was there ever a time when you just sit back and think Is this really my life? I had one of those moments the other day.

My soon to be 16 year old son was sweeping the floor. He was wearing a t-shirt and boxers.(He had been watching tv wearing the snuggie) As he is sweeping he looks over to me and states that he is constipated.

Poor boy.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Tolberone Peanut Butter Cheesecake

I made this awesome recipe the other day. Everyone that has tried a piece of the cheesecake is in awe. There are truly no words to describe how wonderful this really is.

1 1/4 cups Oreo cookie crumbs
1/4 cup butter melted
2 (250 g) packages cream cheese, softened
1 cup smooth peanut butter
1 cup sugar
2 (100 g) Tolberone chocolate bars divided
1 1/2 cups thawed Cool Whip, divided

1. Mix oreo crumbs and butter; press firmly onto bottom of 9 inch pan. Refrigerate for 10 minutes.
2. Beat cream cheese, peanut butter and sugar on medium speed until well blended.
3. Chop 1 chocolate bar and stir into cream cheese mixture. Gently stir in 1 cup of the whipped topping.
4. Spoon over crust, and refrigerate 3 hours.
5. Microwave remaining 1/2 cup whipped topping and chocolate bar on high for 1 minute. Stir until chocolate is melted and mixture is well blended; cool slightly.
6. Pour glaze over cake and refrigerate until ready to serve.

Eat and enjoy!!!

Nutrition Facts
Serving Size 1 (93g)
Recipe makes 12 servings
The following items or measurements are not included below:
1 1/4 cups Oreo cookie crumbs

Toblerone chocolate bars
Calories 400
Calories from Fat 284 (71%)
Amount Per Serving %DV
Total Fat 31.6g 48%
Saturated Fat 15.8g 79%
Monounsaturated Fat 10.3g
Polyunsaturated Fat 3.7g
Trans Fat 0.0g
Cholesterol 56mg 18%
Sodium 251mg 10%
Potassium 192mg 5%
Total Carbohydrate 24.1g 8%
Dietary Fiber 1.3g 5%
Sugars 20.9g
Protein 8.7g 17%


Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Wee Wigglers

I took abby to a Wee Wigglers program on Monday. This was our first time doing class like this. We were both a littel nervous. I felt like when I walked in everyone knew each other. I put on my smile and did not hesitate or waiver. Abby on the other hand waited for most of the class to go by before she would participate. The class that we attend was intended for children ages 2 months - 3 years old. The program is called Characters. When Abby did participate, she had a blast! The teacher was a very pleasant and even tempered lady. Her soft voice made the class quite welcoming. The dance, music, movements, and props all combined together to support early education enrichment and made it fun at the same time. All the children that were participating were clearly enjoying themselves. The children were free to move around and explore in a safe environment. Abby had a grand time and I had so much fun watching her learn and play. Abby had so much fun that she did not want to leave! This is a program that we will attend again and I will recommend it to parents of young children.


Saturday, September 5, 2009

body parts

Yesterday morning when Abby woke up I bounded into her room. I was so excited to see her in the morning. After her initial excitidness, Abby proceeded to have a show and tell conversation with me. Here is how it went.

Abby: (as she pulls up her top and points) belly

Me: yes it is your belly.

Abby: (as she pulls up my top) belly

me: yes that is my belly

Abby: (as she pulls down her top and to the left) boobie

me: ah, yes that is your boobie

Abby: (as she pulls down her top and to the right) boobie

me: uummm, yes that is your boobie

Abby: (as she attempts to pull down my top) boobie

Me: (very taken aback) let's go for breakfast!

Ah Children!


Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Last week

We were invited to my aunt and uncles house for a family BBQ and croquet tournament.

My Aunt Barb and Uncle Ken.

The house was stunningly beautiful. The grounds were well maintained. There was a lot of room to play around in for the children. There was lots of family that I do not get to see often.

We had games to play. I think some teams cheated....but we will debate that later. The kids had fun running free on the property. They were all so well behaved.

Well, all the kids were well behaved except for Steven.

Just joking. He's a great kid!

We has fun exploring all the nooks and crannies. I cannot upload more pics to blogger, but check out my flickr account to see more pictures of the property.

My little princess looks like she found her castle!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Birthday Boy

If you were to look up Steven in the dictionary, It would look like this:

Leitner, Steven: affectionate, agreeable, dear,delightful, friendly, generous, kind, loving, pleasant, pleasing, treasured, and most of all STINKY!!!

Love you little one. Happy birthday!


I watch you fall because you have a loss of balance.
I watch you hurt yourself because of coordination problems.
I watch your mind never stop.
I watch the black curtain of despair descend over you.
I see your constant sadness, irritability, or tension.
I see your decreased interest in your usual activities.
I see your loss in appetite.
I know you have stiff muscles.
I hear your speech problems.
I know of your short-term memory problems.
I know that you have feelings of worthlessness and hopelessness.
I know and have seen many more issues.

I try to pick you up.
I try to be your balance.
I want to be your rock.
I try to give you interesting and new things to think about.
I try to make life happy.
I try to think of fun activities for you to do.
I try to make good food for you to eat.
I would massage your legs and feet every day if I could.
I would speak for you if you would let me.
I try to help you remember.
You are everything to me.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Review your Product

I am a PR-friendly blogger who would love to host reviews and giveaways. I am dedicated to giving family-friendly product reviews. As parents of four, my hubby and I love to give our solicited opinion on every thing - And trust me, he has one! My children love to try new products, as well. If you think our readers should know about someone who makes products that are neat or unique, or you are an indie designer looking to get the word out about your amazing product, I would love to hear from you!
I'm pretty open to reviewing any product, so just ask! I've got a husband, an infant, a tween, two teens, and myself.
I require the full size sample because I don't just use products once and then review them. I will use the product many times so that I can properly endorse it.
The sample that I need is not returnable due to the fact that I will use it.
You will be responsible for any shipping costs involved.
I will post my review in about three weeks.
I strongly recommend doing a giveaway in conjunction with your review! If there's a problem with your product or I find it's not working, I will contact you and we'll see if we can troubleshoot whatever the problem is. I will not post a negative review.
I will not post about any products or services that we have not personally tested.
I accept all forms of event sponsorships and do not charge any additional fees for representing your company and helping you reach your target market.
We love to share travel stories with our readers and would like to visit new destinations as a family. If you would like my family and I to visit your destination, I would be happy to share my travel experience with a large audience. (Hubby needs wheelchair accessible accommodations)
You can also email me directly at momax3 at hotmail dot com.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

My week in review

I started my week going to Ontario Place with Jacob and Abby to see the Sesame Street characters: Abby, Cookie, and Elmo.

Ontario Place is on the water. We saw lots of neat boats. Lots of water. Lots of interesting characters!

Created a feast for dinner after shopping at the Farmer's Market.

Abby had a tea party with some friends.


Friday, July 10, 2009

Perfect day

I had an awesome day yesterday.
I had the day off work. (which is alone to make any day great)
I didn't do any real housework. (I know, I am going to pay for that one)
I did what I wanted to.
I woke up when I was ready to wake up and get out of bed. Abby did help in getting me out of bed and downstairs. I guess these little people need to eat.
I had a little nap in the afternoon. (wow)
The water was turned off for a couple of hours due to construction at lunch time, so I bought pizza for lunch. (even out our of cooking)

I never get to have days like this. It was well needed for my mental health. Everything was just so prefect.

Today is back to reality. At least I will always have Thursday July 9th, 2009.


Sunday, June 28, 2009

A letter to my daughter

To my precious daughter Abby;

First of all...Happy Birthday!!!

Where does the time go? Two years have flown by at such a fast speed. I am not sure if I like how fast this is happening.

I want you to know how much of a blessing you have been to me and your father. You came at a time in our life that was not expecting you.

Let me start from the beginning.

When I was first pregnant with your oldest brother, Kieran, I knew I wanted a boy. I think I would have been upset if he had been a girl. When I was pregnant with your other two brothers, Steven and Jacob, I didn't care if I had boys or girls. I had three boys! I thought my life was to be a mom with three boys. I was totally and completely happy.

Sometimes I watched moms and daughters and how they interacted and started to wish that I could have that. Your brothers would always ask for a sister. Daddy and I said we were done.

But a little part of me always wanted that little girl.

Then the unthinkable happened. Nine and a half years after I had Jacob I found that I was expecting again. I was stunned. Words cannot describe how I felt. Then I found out that you were going to be a girl. Doubly stunned! During the ultrasound when the technician told me that you were a girl I cried. How could I have possibly been blessed with a girl? After all these years of being a mom with three boys, I was going to have a girl.

Due to Dads health we were not sure how having a baby would fit into our lives. Your brothers were incredibly excited. Jacob would always talk to me belly. He made sure that he would talk to you at least once a day. Kieran and Steven would talk to you in my belly, but I think Kieran felt silly.

I was scared to buy girl clothes before you were born. I was almost afraid that if I bought girl clothes, you would be boy. After you were born, it took me thirty minutes in Old Navy to get up the nerve to look in the girl section. I was in unfamiliar territory. Now I can shop for your clothes with no problems. (I'm sure Dad wishes I didn't do it so often!)

Daddy, your brothers, and I fell head over heels in love with our little princess. I want to thank you for being in my life, our lives. You have been a blessing like you will never know. (even when you are screaming to get your own way) You gave your dad a reason for living again. You made me take time off work and to concentrate on my family more. You brought dad and I closer together.

May your life always be blessed.

Love, Mom


Wednesday, June 10, 2009


I was raised by my parents to be a stay at home mom. They would not let me go to college or university to further my education. I was taught how to be a mom. With four younger brothers and one younger sister around that was easy. I always envisioned myself working part time so that I could be home for my children. i had a grand ole life planned out. My husband would have a decent job, we owned a respectable house, and had six children.

I fell in love with Steve in high school. Shortly after high school we found out we were pregnant so we got married. That shot down most of my dream. This wasn't how life was supposed to be. While Steve struggled with finding job, i was at home in a hole of an apartment with barely any furniture. Life in the first few years was a struggle, but we eventually got our footing. We had ups and downs, bigger and better apartments and then a townhouse, job loss, job gain, job loss, and two more children. Steve figured that after boy number three that was it. No more chances for a girl. I had two part jobs along the way, but they were not worth it due to daycare costs.

I decided to go to college to get a 'real' job. I took out a loan and went to the local community college. Going to college was a good idea/bad idea. Good idea because college helped to develop my character into a better person. Bad idea because after ten years I am still paying back the money!

After college I had a hard time finding a job. Go figure! So I went back to school to become a personal support worker. They are high in demand and I would be guaranteed a job. The course was six months and in less than two months after I graduated from that course I had myself a job!!!

I love my most parts of my job. The pay is good. I was working 6 days in every two weeks, with the option of picking up extra shifts if my work was short staffed. I got a lot of extra shifts. If I wanted to work I could and if I wanted to stay home I could.

The first year I worked was great. I worked, Steve worked, all was good. Then Steve had a bad MS attack. The attack brought him down and never let him get back up to where he was physically before. He couldn't work anymore, he wasn't walking, needed a wheelchair, needed a lot of extra care. This went on for quite a few months. Steve had never fully recovered from that MS attack. While he doesn't use his wheelchair often, he can only walk for about five minutes before his legs give out. He falls a lot. He still needs a lot of extra care. He is demanding and that trait made my life so much harder.

During this time we became behind in our rent payments. My in laws were helping us out, but with only me working, we just did not have the money. After trying to make payments and really struggling, we were evicted.

During the next few months there was a lot of fighting, moving, our house was in a storage unit, and I got pregnant.

More to come later. I think this post is long enough!

Saturday, June 6, 2009

How to help people who need it

From experience I am going to post how best to help people in need.

1. Bring a meal or a gift card to a local restaurant.

2. Send a grocery store gift cards and Gas certificates.

3. Send a gift card to Wal Mart or Zellers.

4. Visit.

5. Volunteer to clean the house, or hire an agency to do it.

6. Cash works well. (then they can decide how best to utilize it)

7. Help with a utility bill.

8. Talk with them, either by email, phone, or in person.

9. Treat the family to a fun park or Zoo pass.

10. Spa days.

And lastly, do not ask, just do!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

The first day of the rest of our lives

Yesterday Abby didn't cry when I left for work.

Usually there are many tears, accompanied by hugs and clinging. There is lots of noise and there is tons of heartbreak.

It is not only hard for Abby, but it is so very hard for me. It takes everything I have to walk out that door. I even shed a tear in the process.

But Tuesday was bittersweet.

Daddy put Sesame Street on and had Abby crawl up into his lap. She cuddled in with Daddy and was very content. Abby saw me heading towards the stairs, yelled over to me 'bye!', and waved.

Oh my goodness! what has happened?

I think I shed more tears Tuesday then I have in a long time.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Sesame Street Live!

We won four tickets to see Sesame Street Live in Toronto. The hard part was to decide which four got to go! Everyone wanted to go. (In what planet does an 11, 13 and 16 years old want to see sesame street live?)

Here are some pics from the wonderful event.

The CN Tower was beside the building that we were at.

She is excited, but not quite sure as to why.

Most of the characters:

Her new t-shirt:

Her new Zoe doll:

Bite the Bullet

I am going to have to do it.

I really don't want someone else to:
do my laundry;
wash my house; or
take care of my family.
(Am i crazy?!?)

I need to work full time to support the fam so I need help with my chores. I do not want to relinquish my duties as a mom at home. But I so need the help.

Now begins the long process. I first have to make a doctor's appointment, make it around my schedule, take a reluctant hubby to the doctor, wait for Community Access to Care to call, have CCAC come to the house to assess the situation, wait for the results, wait for a home health agency to call, then come and assess, and then hopefully I will have help.

I am also looking into meals on wheels and a daycare once a week for the baby. Giving hubby some time to himself. He is not keen on these latter two ideas, but ..... life happens.

Friday, May 15, 2009


I have 405 friends on Facebook.

I have 69 people following me on Twitter.

People look at my pics on Flickr.

I have people who I talk to on chat programs regularly.

I have acquaintances that I take my break with when I am at work.

I talk to my neighbours.

I have one sister, four brothers, two parents, two grandmas, and in-laws.

I have one husband and four children.

I used to get invited out, but clubs and bars are not my scene. I like to stay at the home environment.

Why am I so alone?

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Pay it forward...

Soleil Moon Frye with the help of Ashton Kutcher went to Twitter to announce a contest offering free goods to a deserving mom. The event was organized by Soleil who also co-owns the organic children’s store The Little Seed.

The blog asked for women to send in stories about a mom who needed a little extra help this time of year. “We Twittered to everyone in our community and received an outpouring of emotional stories. I read these stories and I was just weeping.”

She teamed up with Scandinavian Child.

Kate Quinn Organics and Serena & Lily joined in the fun when they heard what was going on.

I got excited. I love all three stores!

The blog received almost 100 stories. They couldn't pick just one winner, so all involved are to receive a prize. How awesome is that!?! They will be spending the next few weeks getting all the gifts ready for these deserving women.

We need more people to do this. Hubby and I have attempted to try ideas like this before. I just think that now we will go full fledge ahead to start to pay it forward. One project that hubby wants to do is build bikes and computers for children that do not have any. He picks up bikes, uses some for parts and if he hears of anyone who needs a bike he will try to give them one. He also has done that with computers. It is sometimes hard to get people to give away items. If anyone has any computers of bikes that are decent and wish to help hubby help others, please contact us.

This keeps hubby busy and please help us pay it forward.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

happy Mother's Day?

What is the point of mother's day?

My guys never do anything for me. They are all too self centered to think of someone else. At the last moment I always get "I am sorry" 's and a big hug. Daddy cannot do anything.

I remember attempting to make my mom something unique and homemade (from the heart). She still has some of the pictures hanging on her walls! Is it because I am a girl and I have mostly boys that things are different? hhmmmm.

I will post tomorrow to let you all know how my day went.
(I can tell you now, lunch will be at Swiss Chalet. Kinds sucks because I had to work to pay for it!?!?!?)

What are your plans for mother's day?

Added: I am not the only one who has problems with mother's day. Check out this post.


Friday, May 1, 2009

I Paid For This?

As most of you know hubby has Multiple Sclerosis. He was diagnosed in 1990ish at the age of 19 years old. When we were married hubby had relapsing-remitting ms. The best way to describe this is like stairs. RRMS is characterized by clearly defined attacks followed by complete or partial recovery. This is the most common form of MS. Recently hubby was diagnosed with secondary-progressive . This is when the disease becomes progressive after an initial relapsing-remitting phase. Generally people with relapsing-remitting MS develop secondary progressive MS. In this type of MS, the disease will progress with or without relapses. When attacks do occur, the recovery is usually not complete; so disability then accumulates over time. So, hubby has been on a downward slope to getting worse.
Hubby falls multiple times in day, cannot walk for more than three minutes, has more energy in the morning, and zero energy in the evening, needs supervision for showering, and cannot make meals.
I have to 'Steve' proof my house, I cannot take Steve for a walk, do anything that requires exertion in the morning - never in the evening!, make sure I am home when hubby needs to take a shower, and premake meals for the family.
The last Friday hubby had a doctor appointment. I forgot about it until almost the last moment. I needed the day off, so I lost one days pay (which sucked because I had to take the other day off to take my youngest boy to the doctor). With only one income in the family it is hard to take a day off, but hubby cannot do these things on his own.
the appointment appeared to do well. At the end of the appointment the doc ended with this comment "your MS has progressed so much that there is nothing more we can do to help you".
My life is so hard and I try so hard to be strong for hubby but this was too much to handle. I see the fear and hurt in his eyes. I NEED to be strong. How can I do this?


Saturday, April 25, 2009

16 years and only one broken bone

Yesterday was my 16th wedding anniversary. I woke up around six am and was chatting with Steve. I asked him his evening went the night before and if he had any plans during the day. I had plans on taking him out for breakfast at this awesome breakfast restaurant. About 6:30 Steve looked over at me and said "I think Steven broke his arm". I was shocked that nobody said anything the day before, or even called me at work. I would have come home and taken him to the hospital right away. We got up, got dressed and Steven and I went to the local ER. After three very long hours later we walked out with a splint on Steven's arm, a diagnosis of a hairline fracture in the growth plate, and an appointment for the next Thursday to get a cast put on.
I got home around 10:45 and was so very hungry. Took Steve out to the cool restaurant called Eggscrepe. My breakfast was awesome.
I could have thought of a better way to spend my anniversary, but I spent time with little Steven and had fun with him.