Thursday, May 28, 2009

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Sesame Street Live!

We won four tickets to see Sesame Street Live in Toronto. The hard part was to decide which four got to go! Everyone wanted to go. (In what planet does an 11, 13 and 16 years old want to see sesame street live?)

Here are some pics from the wonderful event.

The CN Tower was beside the building that we were at.

She is excited, but not quite sure as to why.

Most of the characters:

Her new t-shirt:

Her new Zoe doll:

Bite the Bullet

I am going to have to do it.

I really don't want someone else to:
do my laundry;
wash my house; or
take care of my family.
(Am i crazy?!?)

I need to work full time to support the fam so I need help with my chores. I do not want to relinquish my duties as a mom at home. But I so need the help.

Now begins the long process. I first have to make a doctor's appointment, make it around my schedule, take a reluctant hubby to the doctor, wait for Community Access to Care to call, have CCAC come to the house to assess the situation, wait for the results, wait for a home health agency to call, then come and assess, and then hopefully I will have help.

I am also looking into meals on wheels and a daycare once a week for the baby. Giving hubby some time to himself. He is not keen on these latter two ideas, but ..... life happens.

Friday, May 15, 2009


I have 405 friends on Facebook.

I have 69 people following me on Twitter.

People look at my pics on Flickr.

I have people who I talk to on chat programs regularly.

I have acquaintances that I take my break with when I am at work.

I talk to my neighbours.

I have one sister, four brothers, two parents, two grandmas, and in-laws.

I have one husband and four children.

I used to get invited out, but clubs and bars are not my scene. I like to stay at the home environment.

Why am I so alone?

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Pay it forward...

Soleil Moon Frye with the help of Ashton Kutcher went to Twitter to announce a contest offering free goods to a deserving mom. The event was organized by Soleil who also co-owns the organic children’s store The Little Seed.

The blog asked for women to send in stories about a mom who needed a little extra help this time of year. “We Twittered to everyone in our community and received an outpouring of emotional stories. I read these stories and I was just weeping.”

She teamed up with Scandinavian Child.

Kate Quinn Organics and Serena & Lily joined in the fun when they heard what was going on.

I got excited. I love all three stores!

The blog received almost 100 stories. They couldn't pick just one winner, so all involved are to receive a prize. How awesome is that!?! They will be spending the next few weeks getting all the gifts ready for these deserving women.

We need more people to do this. Hubby and I have attempted to try ideas like this before. I just think that now we will go full fledge ahead to start to pay it forward. One project that hubby wants to do is build bikes and computers for children that do not have any. He picks up bikes, uses some for parts and if he hears of anyone who needs a bike he will try to give them one. He also has done that with computers. It is sometimes hard to get people to give away items. If anyone has any computers of bikes that are decent and wish to help hubby help others, please contact us.

This keeps hubby busy and please help us pay it forward.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

happy Mother's Day?

What is the point of mother's day?

My guys never do anything for me. They are all too self centered to think of someone else. At the last moment I always get "I am sorry" 's and a big hug. Daddy cannot do anything.

I remember attempting to make my mom something unique and homemade (from the heart). She still has some of the pictures hanging on her walls! Is it because I am a girl and I have mostly boys that things are different? hhmmmm.

I will post tomorrow to let you all know how my day went.
(I can tell you now, lunch will be at Swiss Chalet. Kinds sucks because I had to work to pay for it!?!?!?)

What are your plans for mother's day?

Added: I am not the only one who has problems with mother's day. Check out this post.


Friday, May 1, 2009

I Paid For This?

As most of you know hubby has Multiple Sclerosis. He was diagnosed in 1990ish at the age of 19 years old. When we were married hubby had relapsing-remitting ms. The best way to describe this is like stairs. RRMS is characterized by clearly defined attacks followed by complete or partial recovery. This is the most common form of MS. Recently hubby was diagnosed with secondary-progressive . This is when the disease becomes progressive after an initial relapsing-remitting phase. Generally people with relapsing-remitting MS develop secondary progressive MS. In this type of MS, the disease will progress with or without relapses. When attacks do occur, the recovery is usually not complete; so disability then accumulates over time. So, hubby has been on a downward slope to getting worse.
Hubby falls multiple times in day, cannot walk for more than three minutes, has more energy in the morning, and zero energy in the evening, needs supervision for showering, and cannot make meals.
I have to 'Steve' proof my house, I cannot take Steve for a walk, do anything that requires exertion in the morning - never in the evening!, make sure I am home when hubby needs to take a shower, and premake meals for the family.
The last Friday hubby had a doctor appointment. I forgot about it until almost the last moment. I needed the day off, so I lost one days pay (which sucked because I had to take the other day off to take my youngest boy to the doctor). With only one income in the family it is hard to take a day off, but hubby cannot do these things on his own.
the appointment appeared to do well. At the end of the appointment the doc ended with this comment "your MS has progressed so much that there is nothing more we can do to help you".
My life is so hard and I try so hard to be strong for hubby but this was too much to handle. I see the fear and hurt in his eyes. I NEED to be strong. How can I do this?